Hey everyone...

It has been a while since I have actually "written" a blog.

So much stuff has been going on lately... it has been quite overwhelming.

I struggle sometimes with how much of my personal life to reveal. I am concerned with my privacy as you can tell (ie. pictures with the mask!).

Do I deserve privacy? I guess I am a somewhat public figure, does that make me public domain? I like to think not.

There are some who feel I don't deserve privacy though. I was shocked and hurt to see that someone betrayed me this week.

I live my life in a mostly vanilla way... not many people in my life know about my foot stuff. There are good reasons for that which I am sure many of you can identify with. However, I hoped I could keep the two parts of my life separate. I even had another facebook profile... a vanilla one that had my vanilla friends and family... who know nothing about this part of my life. Well this week I found out that one of my fans had found my vanilla profile (which has since been taken down, thank you), and messaged at least one of my friends who was a girl (not a close friend).

This person proceeded to ask the girl if he could lick her feet. Shocked, she asked why he would ask such a thing. He replied that he figured she might be into feet because she was friends with me... aka. Isabella Dolce. "Didn't you know this is what she does for a living?"... and directed her to my website.

Girls can be odd. Gossipy. I don't know who this girl was... I found out from another girl... so I have no idea how far this has gone now.

Regardless, that is not the point. The point is, do I not deserve the right to whom I choose about certain things in my life? I felt so betrayed and disappointed. Maybe I am being too sensitive... but I really thought if anyone would respect my privacy, it would be my foot boys... knowing how judgmental some people can be!

Anyway, as I said, I had to take my vanilla facebook down.

Perhaps the reason why I am so hurt could have something to do with the other stuff that is going on too.

I have had a bad case of strep throat. The meds are taking much longer to work than usual. Another few days and I will go back to the doctor.

I suspect the reason I got the strep throat is because my defenses have been low.

My grandmother had a stroke a few weeks ago and it has hit me hard. I haven't been sleeping much and have been going back and forth from the hospital. Hospital germs.

She is not doing well. She is moving her leg on the side that was affected by the stroke a bit, but is unable to move anything else. It makes her happy when the grand kids go and visit her... and it makes me happy (and a bit sad) to be there too.

This is one of my most honest and kinda depressing blogs.

I would really like if this was my last depressing blog for a long while.... I am so over 2010... bring on 2011!